this is going to be very short this morning. i'm not sure how much time i have to play with right now. last night has been one of the worst nights of my fucking life. i'm antsy, wanting to fight and stressed over just about everything. things are pretty whacked right now. then this morning i get a phone call from my sister in west virginia. my dad is in the hospital again. he's not even well enough to transport him to the VA hospital 45 minutes away from his home.

his blood sugar spiked last night to over 400, so he called my sister to come help him give himself an insulin shot. she stayed over with him to make sure he was ok. and about 4:15 or so he starts freaking out that he can't breathe and she calls 911. he is rushed to ICU again in the local hospital and they can't transport him to his doctor. i have no idea what's gone on since because there hasn't been any contact with anyone there yet. i'm freaking out because when they were loading him into the ambulance he told patty to make sure that if he passed away to do certain things with his possessions. he's never done that before.

right now i'm in a state of shock mixed with panic. i'm not sure if i can sleep today, and i have work tonight and tomorrow.

this is for my friends who are currently not online. if i disappear for a while it's because of this... i'll try to check in as often as i can, but god... i need some help here....

edit: omg... i've got to go to west virginia in the morning. i just got the call. he's not going to make it. i don't know how long i'll have before he passes. anyone who believes in prayer, candles, magic, or even anything else, can you please help me keep my daddy around so i can see him one more time? please?

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